Thoughtstorming

I still haven't gotten around to uploading any more photos... maybe soon? I have some more now, mostly from the Em. Haines show that I attended with my lil' cuz. I'm starting to realize that my whining about lack of siblings & thus blood ties unseverable by squabbles can be possibly cured. I found someone who will shop with me, borrow my shoes, AND make snappy/witty comments about singers that are probably quite accurate (not that I want any more shopping - I'm starting to get stomach-achey at the thought of a mall & all of the mass-produced lifestyle add-ons that go with it).

Cuz & me:



Emily Haines and the Soft Skeleton:



So far, 2007 has brought back the going-out (definitely not the outgoing) Jen, my new little black book has been packed with things to do and people to see. I finished my first novel (The Children's Hospital by Chris Adrian) and am trying to resign myself to a dialed-down schedule that includes more appointments with Physics, Biology, and Chemistry rather than jump into another novel (apparently, I think I might make it till the end of April before caving?).

Lately, I've been inexplicably anxious. I've been feeling fluttery and fretty, and have been getting regular doses of heart sinking feelings that I can't quite explain. I'm pretty sure that it's mostly a result of not being tethered to a secure life plan, and not knowing exactly where I'm going. I really can't wait for this awkward stage to be over - and hopefully it will at least result in some personal growth. I really hate to think that any part of my life could just be wasted, even if I have no choice right now but to wait for what I really want.