The Waiting Game

It's been a week and a half since The Big Interview, and I feel removed enough from it now to be able to talk/post about it without crushing waves of anxiety rolling over me. I was pretty good about not getting too nervous leading up to the interview - I tried not to think about it too much on Friday and felt pretty calm and in control on Saturday during the interview itself, but now that all had been said and done, is when the real nerves have kicked in. I hate that I have absolutely no control over the application any more, all I can do is wait wait wait until May 15th, when I will hopefully get an email with AMAZING news, or even just 'not bad' news. Or no email at all, meaning bad news. But there is nothing that I could say or do between now and then that will speed up the process, or showcase me and make me seem like a wonderful, obvious choice.

Mark's parents kicked in with a couple things to help me through this time: a bottle of wine (helped the night of the interview!) and "Bloodletting and Other Miraculous Cures", a book that I have wanted to read for at least a year. I just finished it yesterday, and it was truly the perfect book for me to read at this point in my life. I'm unable to think about much other than medicine at the moment (unless I'm distracting myself with music or Mario), and the novel captured both my obsession with getting in as well as the feeling of having done (for this point in time) everything that I can and realizing that some things are out of my control, and life is just like that. Having read the book, I feel like I can move on a bit from thinking and worrying about my results, and just be happy while I wait. Hopefully, I'll get good news - if not, I'll hope for another year like this last one - it's been awesome.

A Short Message from Annie

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Love and kisses,
Annie